September has just ended so I thought of writing an update on my fitness journey that month. In my previous post, I have shared about one activity I have started doing since this lockdown happened which is working out.
My initial thought was that if we are going to pause our lives for months, why not work onto something which will benefit us health-wise in the future. Besides, at the end of all of this, when we are back to the way things were, we could show that we become a better version of ourselves instead of wasting time and being unproductive. Productive wise, it could be anything- a new skill or two, hobbies, learning a language, or just resting and spending quality time with family if you weren’t doing that before.
My goal when I started working out was to become stronger. Weight loss wasn’t the main goal, however, if I were to ever lose weight while I exercise, it would be a great bonus as well. Okay, maybe I want to get rid of my belly fats because it has grown embarrassingly huge over the past years.
As a woman, I have dreamt of wearing a swimming suit confidently and own it like I don’t care. Have you seen those photos of models showing off their sexy bodies in bikinis? Sure, you have because you see them everywhere. Being realistic though, I accepted the fact that I won’t be as toned and sexy as them. For one, they’re very serious about their figure. That’s their job so they work out for hours every day and are very meticulous of their diet and all. On the contrary, I can only spare 30 minutes to an hour a day of exercise, much harder when I work a 12-hour shift for two to three consecutive days. Although it’s hard, what I wanted, however, is to be fit and have the best healthy body I could get for myself.
Even though I was considered “chubby” on many occasions in the past, it never stopped me from being confident in how I carry myself. There are insecurities from time to time, of course, who doesn’t? As I grow and become an adult though, I have come to accept my strengths including all I may lack physically.
When we went on holiday to the beach, for example, I would always shop for swimming wear. Luckily people in Thailand are used to the views of women in bikinis unlike in the Philippines where some people would stare at you. Either because they’re impressed or they’re silently criticizing you.
I don’t give much thought to how people see me, if they think I’m chubby, ugly, or fat, I don’t care. The most important thing is I love myself and my body. My plan for being more active is an act of love for myself, I am doing it for me, not for other people.
Health is wealth
Other reasons I’m working to become more active are, firstly, I want to live a long life. A life that reaches the point when I’ll grow white hair and have dry, sensitive skin. Two, this would sound funny because when I said I want to be strong, I meant with strong muscles that could at least carry myself. Not the bulging kind of muscles you see on tv though.
The story behind that reasoning came after watching Titanic. One fact about me is it’s one of my favorite movies of all time. I may have maybe watched it more than ten times in my life. There was a scene there where the ship was starting to sink and that water coming inside. It was very thrilling. I was holding my breath. Then, people started dying one by one. Some lost their grip onto the handle so they slid down to the water and drowned. Those who were able to pull themselves up were able to cross to the other part of the sinking ship and survive.
After watching that movie I imagined myself as one of the passengers on the ship. If I were there, would I survive? Honestly, I probably would not. It won’t be a surprise if I was the first to drown and die. And so, I want to give myself a little boost of at least 10% of survival in Titanic or any other action-filled situations in life. How do I do that? Mainly develop my arm muscles to be strong until I can pull myself up. Being physically strong has many advantages in life, you see.
With all of that said, I noticed that my arm muscles have improved over the past weeks. The first time I exercised, I could barely finish one push up. Now, without bragging, I could probably do 8-10 push up, ha.
All my workout routines are found on youtube. For now, I am following Chloe Ting’s summer shred program which is a real challenge. During rest days or those with only an optional video, I would add random exercises depending on my mood. Oftentimes, I dance through The Fitness Marshall dance workout because it’s fun. Just recently, I’ve found more workout routines that I can follow over the internet such as Madfit and Zumba dances. You’ll be impressed at the workout videos you can find online. No reason not to be able to exercise without going to the gym these days.
The struggles and pain working out are real. I don’t like abs workout very much because it hurts but over time, I have learned to appreciate them. The saying ‘no pain, no gain’ is true in this matter. There were times when I feel lazy, getting up is such a heavy thing to do. It’s usually the start of the workout when you will be tested. However, every after the workout, you would be glad that you did it. So, don’t give up easily. Like what all fitness icons say, focus on your goal, focus on what you want to achieve.
More to go…
One month after doing Chloe Ting’s summer shred workout out, I have seen great changes in my body. My face is not as round as it was before. My arms become toned with my flabby bat wings almost gone. Most importantly are my belly fats. I can see that there are fewer fats and my abdominal muscles are becoming more visible.
There are still lots left though as I accepted the truth that it will not be done after only a month or two. It will take more than that, I anticipate. These fats have been with me for years, getting rid of them will not be too easy. So, I’m expecting more sweat and fats to burn for the next coming months. What is important is that we exercise consistently.
I have a long way to go on this journey. Despite that, I am determined to finish all the fitness challenges I have started and will start in the future. It is also my absolute goal to enjoy every way as I endeavor to find a version of me I might have never seen before.