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Pinas for good?

In my previous post, I promised an explanation for why I went home to the Philippines despite my good life in Thailand. 

When I say I had a good life, it was great that I even thought of residing in Thailand for a very long time. As long as I have a stable job which I had, I think I could remain there for years if I wanted to. I was earning a decent salary with numerous opportunities for earning even more from part-time tutoring. My job is one of the best jobs any OFWs in Thailand can wish for. 

It wasn’t stressful like in other regular teaching jobs because we were only supporting one student at a time. Visa and work permit are being handled by the school leaving us free from hassles and worries, unlike other Filipinos. Moreover, there are so many holidays allowing me to travel as many places as I can. You can read all about my adventure in my travel section. Thailand is undoubtedly a beautiful tourist destination for everyone to visit, either to their beaches, islands and big cities. It seemed like I was on vacation mode during our breaks in school. I loved my comfortable life so much that it wasn’t easy for me to let it go.

Why I left Thailand

So, why did I leave? I’m going to try to explain it as best as I can. Maybe, some of you can relate. =) Actually, the reason is not as dramatic as I think you are all expecting it to be. As I mentioned, I was living a comfortable life, particularly with the job that I had. And usually, I had free time on my hand, therefore, giving me a lot of moments to ponder about my life. The questions that keep on bugging me were “Am I going to stay long in Thailand?” and “What is next for me?”. 

Probably, it’s my personality or just the way I am. I always think further into the future and challenge myself to do something new every time I get comfortable with things I am doing. Is that bad or good? I don’t know. 

While I was brainstorming for my next plans, I came to encounter the possibility of studying for a postgraduate course. It’s like an upgrade, I think. It will keep me busy with school work. Hopefully, lighting that spark again from within me. Although, the next question is, “What course/major shall I take?” You see, education/teaching isn’t my major in college. I graduated with a nursing degree. I only took education units so I could teach legally in Thailand.

Thinking of studying for a master’s degree in education means separating myself further away from what I intentionally studied for four years in University. And in truth, it saddened me to think about it. I’m not proud to say that I’m one of those people who aren’t applying what they learned in college. 

But not anymore. You see, I am going to practice what I learned a long time ago. I always care for people. That was why I wanted to become a nurse in the first place. It was only the circumstances for nurses in the Philippines before that discouraged me to practice.

Closer to loved ones.

Now, I explained why I left Thailand- only to change my career back to what it was supposed to be. I want to try it again before it’s too late for me. The second reason is of course, so I can be near my beloved people.

Living abroad, you have no choice but to have a much smaller circle of friends and families. You are lucky if you get to bring your own family abroad. However, being in your home country with your loved ones is a nice feeling that I sometimes forget after living for years in Thailand.

I’m excited to see them again. You know that feeling when you’re constantly surrounded by people who care for you. Or, if I want to go somewhere, for instance, I can just ask for friends or family members to accompany me or hang out with me. In short, there are a few dull moments when you’re at your home country. That is something I was looking forward to again while here in the Philippines.

What’s next for me?

I’m definitely expecting that I will be busy for the next coming months. I don’t think I could travel much as I did in Thailand. But knowing myself, I’ll surely find ways to explore my home country and continue to write about them here on my blog.

For the meantime, I’m meeting relatives and friends here and there. You know how it goes for Filipinos, it means long chicka time and endless updates of everyone from the day you last saw each other until the day you’re back. Ha!

What to expect in my blog

I’m still going to write weekly articles about updates or tips I might find helpful for everybody. Although, I won’t promise that it will be as interesting as it was before, especially my travel posts but I will try my best. =)

I hope I was able to clear everything up. You know that saying, “The only thing that is constant is change” is true. This is surely a huge change for me but something that I wholeheartedly wanted. So, I’m happy. I think that’s the most important thing. You should do what your heart desires and that will make you happy because, in the end, it’s going to be you who’ll regret it someday. 

PS.

I just want to add something especially about regrets because now that I’m pursuing a change in my career, I know there’ll be lots of comments about it. I’ve already heard some that start with, “If you have done it before …/if only…”. And I hate it when people say that because it sounded like I regretted my life before. That I was unhappy so I’m changing it.

Well, in my case, it’s different. I was very happy with my life and where it’s going. Everything I did and tried, I did it because I wanted to. However, now, I want something new. There is nothing wrong with that, is there?

Anyways, I guess, all I want to say is that, instead of saying “if only/ I should have..”, we should think more the positive side of things especially towards our decisions and goals. That’s all. =)

I wish you all the positivity in life! Cheers!